The big burn is approaching and as I really start to pack up all my projects costumes and supplies I can't help but think I'm forgetting something. They say for both first timers as well as returning burners the packing anxiety is normal. Fortunately, I came across this fantastic article.
Everything has been super crazy at home and work. My parents are gone so I am house sitting. And with Aspenoni gone, my cat, Thai is driving me crazy.
Three days ago she brought in a mouse. This wouldn't be a problem except my cat tends to not harm them in anyway as she brings them inside. This leaves me having to chase all over the house after it. Because, Thai will bring it in, set in at my feet and then let it go. All the while looking at me expecting me to go do something about it. So in the last three days, I've almost caught it 3 times. Every time, the cat would swoop down at the last second and race it down into my bedroom before letting it go again. It's still at large somewhere in the house. I hope we can find it and take care of it before I leave.
The mouse hunting obviously has made packing a little difficult to take on right now. It's been more, laundry and pulling apart the heater vents trying to get at the little vermin. Tonight, I hope to make one final stab at my unfinished projects before packing everything away.
Thursday, August 26, 2010
Monday, August 16, 2010
To my beloved Aspen...
A little over a week ago I had to go through probably one of the most difficult times in my life. For many of you who know me, you know that my dog Aspen was way more to me than just a dog. She was my companion, she was my joy and my happiness in my normal every day life.
On August 4th, 2010 we noticed that she wasn't doing so great. So I took her into the vet, got some more medication for her and was told to keep a close watch over her. They said if she wasn't better by Friday to bring her back in. Well Thursday morning she was looking rather ill so my mother took her in to the vet pronto. They called back saying they were going to keep her for the day. Completely in shock I waited anxiously to hear what the vet had to say. My nerves all over the map at this point.
They called back and I was told that my sweet wiggle butt had Autoimmune Anemia. This was followed rather quickly by jaundice. They told me they were going to keep her over night.
The next couple of days were very way up and down. Friday after work I was able to go out to the vet with my parents and my brother Jake. My friends Ellie and Bobby went out there as well to pay Aspen a visit. And she perked up, wagging her tail, and enjoyed just getting a chance to see some of the people she loved so much. She even ate green beans and tomatoes as well as some Yummy Chummies. Which was a great sign, as well as her keeping down the puppy food they gave her earlier that day. That evening I got a call saying that she appeared to be making a turn in the right direction and my thoughts were put at ease.
But by 7am the following morning she had taken a turn for the worse. The jaundice was too bad. Her gums were a bright florescent color. And her sweet little eyes were also very yellow, you could see it even in her ears. It broke my heart to see her have so little energy from the Autoimmune anemia that she couldn't even lift her head up when we got there Saturday morning. She was so happy to see us, but you could tell she was tired. Tired of fighting. She just wanted to be held.
Another thing I know Aspen did was she spread her love far and wide. She touched so many peoples lives with her silly song singing or her crazy little butt wagging a mile a minute, or perhaps the fact that she always needed to have a pillow or a knee to rest her head on. Who knows, but one thing is for sure, she had so many friends. And to all those friends, I hope she enriched your life as much as she did mine.
Besides, I'd like to have a tranquil space where I can visit them at any time.
Just remember, memories, are all we have left when all is said and done.
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They called back and I was told that my sweet wiggle butt had Autoimmune Anemia. This was followed rather quickly by jaundice. They told me they were going to keep her over night.
The next couple of days were very way up and down. Friday after work I was able to go out to the vet with my parents and my brother Jake. My friends Ellie and Bobby went out there as well to pay Aspen a visit. And she perked up, wagging her tail, and enjoyed just getting a chance to see some of the people she loved so much. She even ate green beans and tomatoes as well as some Yummy Chummies. Which was a great sign, as well as her keeping down the puppy food they gave her earlier that day. That evening I got a call saying that she appeared to be making a turn in the right direction and my thoughts were put at ease.
But by 7am the following morning she had taken a turn for the worse. The jaundice was too bad. Her gums were a bright florescent color. And her sweet little eyes were also very yellow, you could see it even in her ears. It broke my heart to see her have so little energy from the Autoimmune anemia that she couldn't even lift her head up when we got there Saturday morning. She was so happy to see us, but you could tell she was tired. Tired of fighting. She just wanted to be held.
That's all my sweet little girl ever wanted, to be held. She always just wanted to be right by your side. Doing everything that you were. Sitting there on the floor in the vets office, I held her. I stroked her soft fur and I told her that everything was going to be alright. She looked at me and took one deep last breath. Even before the vet was able to come in and see us, I knew that my sweet little girl was gone. There wasn't anything left that we could do, she'd lost her fight. She relaxed right there in my arms. Her body at rest. And me, heartbroken.
Heartbroken, but non the less thankful for everything Aspenoni had brought into my life. She made every adventure all the greater for me. Don't get be wrong, there were plenty of times where Aspen was ill. But there is nothing more I could have asked for than to have her be remembered as the sweet, fun, happy go lucky little girl she was. Always ready to go on an adventure always willing to be right by my side. Smiling, singing and prancing along like she always did.
Heartbroken, but non the less thankful for everything Aspenoni had brought into my life. She made every adventure all the greater for me. Don't get be wrong, there were plenty of times where Aspen was ill. But there is nothing more I could have asked for than to have her be remembered as the sweet, fun, happy go lucky little girl she was. Always ready to go on an adventure always willing to be right by my side. Smiling, singing and prancing along like she always did.
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I'll be picking up her ashes and taking them (along with my first cat Chii's ashes) out the road to a spot I used to take both of them. My plan is to create some kind of meditation spot where I can go and be with them. Some people might think me a little nuts for that I suppose. But I don't care, they were my everything. They were both SO much more to me than a pet. They got me through some very difficult times and they deserve to be remembered like this.
Just remember, memories, are all we have left when all is said and done.
Love you my sweet Aspen, you're such a good girl.
(Aspenoni/WiggleButt/Smily/MountainGoat/FerociousBeast/Sleepy/CuddleBug)2.12.2007 - 8.7.2010
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Aspen Kreuzenstein
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Bali - Lonely Planet Travel Video
I know it has been awhile. And I really do need to post a few blogs soon. So much has happened in the last month that even looking back a week is bizarre to me. One thing is certain. It was one heck of a summer. So many memories, so many adventures, so many good times. I can't wait for the next.
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A friend of mine is off to go and explore the world. I myself am thinking of taking that leap. He'll be traveling to so many places over the upcoming Fall and Winter months and said I was more than welcome to join him along the journey. I have to say, I might just take him up on his offer. What do you say? Bali for my birthday?... I don't know... it might just top every birthday prior. I say go for it.
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