They called back and I was told that my sweet wiggle butt had Autoimmune Anemia. This was followed rather quickly by jaundice. They told me they were going to keep her over night.
The next couple of days were very way up and down. Friday after work I was able to go out to the vet with my parents and my brother Jake. My friends Ellie and Bobby went out there as well to pay Aspen a visit. And she perked up, wagging her tail, and enjoyed just getting a chance to see some of the people she loved so much. She even ate green beans and tomatoes as well as some Yummy Chummies. Which was a great sign, as well as her keeping down the puppy food they gave her earlier that day. That evening I got a call saying that she appeared to be making a turn in the right direction and my thoughts were put at ease.
But by 7am the following morning she had taken a turn for the worse. The jaundice was too bad. Her gums were a bright florescent color. And her sweet little eyes were also very yellow, you could see it even in her ears. It broke my heart to see her have so little energy from the Autoimmune anemia that she couldn't even lift her head up when we got there Saturday morning. She was so happy to see us, but you could tell she was tired. Tired of fighting. She just wanted to be held.
That's all my sweet little girl ever wanted, to be held. She always just wanted to be right by your side. Doing everything that you were. Sitting there on the floor in the vets office, I held her. I stroked her soft fur and I told her that everything was going to be alright. She looked at me and took one deep last breath. Even before the vet was able to come in and see us, I knew that my sweet little girl was gone. There wasn't anything left that we could do, she'd lost her fight. She relaxed right there in my arms. Her body at rest. And me, heartbroken.
Heartbroken, but non the less thankful for everything Aspenoni had brought into my life. She made every adventure all the greater for me. Don't get be wrong, there were plenty of times where Aspen was ill. But there is nothing more I could have asked for than to have her be remembered as the sweet, fun, happy go lucky little girl she was. Always ready to go on an adventure always willing to be right by my side. Smiling, singing and prancing along like she always did.
Heartbroken, but non the less thankful for everything Aspenoni had brought into my life. She made every adventure all the greater for me. Don't get be wrong, there were plenty of times where Aspen was ill. But there is nothing more I could have asked for than to have her be remembered as the sweet, fun, happy go lucky little girl she was. Always ready to go on an adventure always willing to be right by my side. Smiling, singing and prancing along like she always did.
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I'll be picking up her ashes and taking them (along with my first cat Chii's ashes) out the road to a spot I used to take both of them. My plan is to create some kind of meditation spot where I can go and be with them. Some people might think me a little nuts for that I suppose. But I don't care, they were my everything. They were both SO much more to me than a pet. They got me through some very difficult times and they deserve to be remembered like this.
Just remember, memories, are all we have left when all is said and done.
Love you my sweet Aspen, you're such a good girl.
(Aspenoni/WiggleButt/Smily/MountainGoat/FerociousBeast/Sleepy/CuddleBug)2.12.2007 - 8.7.2010
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Aspen Kreuzenstein
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